Gratitude

A lot of things have been making me think lately. Last night, my friend Steph made a comment about how everyone was amazed that I took Guppy in stride. I didn't seem nervous or jittery, I didn't lose it when he cried non-stop for several months with colic, I don't chase him around and worry...
I think that part of it is that I am amazed that I made it this far. Every time he cries, I think , "Man, this would be a lot worse if he was crying and I was blind." Or if I needed to run out for some food and couldn't let him hang out with my dad because I had no one on the Mexican border. Or if I died during childbirth, and my family was so sad at wanting to be with him, but he was in Texas...
I think that life has taken an amazing turn, and I can't help but KNOW there is a higher power in all this. How else do you go from being stuck, to having such a perfect life? Well, except for the snow. Screw snow! I have a beautiful house, a perfectly healthy and happy child, a great babysitter, a flexible and fulfilling job, an opportunity to get my PhD, great friends, a great grandma and grandpa for Gupper, and I can see. Wow, being alive at this point really rocks.
I'm really grateful. I have a different perspective than a lot of people, but that is who I am.